O Merciful Death (Sonnet)

In the warmth of night I give you my cries,
pray you help chill my blood and numb my skin,
with your white hands wipe clean my burning eyes,
with your breath save my body from within.

The world once glowed with beauty and light.
I saw the world through the eyes of a god.
The wonders of life and warmth shone bright.
Love steered my path like the iron rod.

Now scalding silence tears at my ears
and emptiness boils away my blood.
Abandoned, I am left to hold our love dear,
but without your silver lips I never would.

The fire of love burns all to the ground
on th'embers I call for death, take me now.

 ~Savy Hendrix

2-1-10

Broken Open

Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be

I don't want you to go
Don't wanna see you back out in the cold
Air you're breathing out fades you to grey
Don't run away, find me

I know the battles of chasing the shadows of who you wanna be
It doesn't matter, go on and shatter
I'm all you need
Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

Let's enlighten the night
We can fall away, slip out of sight
When you drop your guard
Melt into time, so intertwined, quiet

I know the battles of chasing the shadows of who you wanna be
It doesn't matter, go on and shatter
I'm all you need
Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

~Adam Lambert

8-29-09

"When the power of love

overcomes

the love of power, the world will know

peace."

~Jimi Hendrix

8-27-09

everywhere to go and nowhere to hide

my panic is evaporating

the remainder of my mind

dissect it's cold torture and find thawing hearts

the burn of inevitability

from which I cannot part

my rocks shaking, my head a swirling void

I'm choking on my caged animals

those from which now I can't avoid

consequences of indifference

poison the only thing left

on living past the tears

that never came to wash away

my self-dignified immodesty

and to the souls of all who drink of it

may it wash away your fears.

Product never guaranteed

drink in the honor of my frozen blood

plea to nothingness that it takes me back

to be washed out of my sinful mud

is to shine to all what I lack.

8-27-09

cold fire spits at my walls-

walls of indestructible indifference,

but I bleed watery shame for the things

they hold.

reality is never so if you don't believe.

my glass walls bubble me in

hold me when no on else

seems to be around,

bounce my cries back to me

when no one is there

to listen.

so I cannot abandon the ones who

let my fears be my comfort.

forcing me to learn

from my ever growing mistakes.

holding me down, not letting me

feel the crying pain,

the destroyer I see all around.

Every time I open the treacherous door

(which I have done oh so many times)

the pressure of a thousand breaths

I've ignored

crush in around me.

My walls keep me safe.

Ignorance is a disaster,

Knowledge is key,

But indifference is a savior.

Indifference shields the weak.

6-28-09

http://mypointeofview.blogspot.com/2009/06/up-above-world-you-fly-like-teatray-in.html

6-23-09

Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
A raunchy young world
Mad world

~Tears For Fears

6-5-09

Drowning In Reality

Things are crashing down inside of me

falling and not getting back up.

falling into myself with no support,

discovering that someone took my training wheels away,

seeing through the fingers of the hand that covers my eyes,

opening a locked door,

walking in on what I don't want to know,

watching the walls fall around me to reveal a darkness.

And knowing it was there all along.

things held close to my heart are torn and broken.

my frozen heart melts

and I discover it was just ice the whole time.

the air around me thinning from deceit and misconception.

my chest crushes into me

trying to  find comfort in my heart

but he is just as shaken.

no floor to stand upon.

no plan, no structure, that I know is there.

seeing through my glass floor this whole time

has made me what I think is strong.

but not until someone shattered it,

and I was devoured by the world, did I realize,

the difference between seeing and feeling.

and when reality covers you like a wave

crushing your bones

washing away your skin

you know why people let the waves carry them.

and your tears are mixed with the hatred that you are bathing in

and your wings are torn off by the current

and defying gravity seems like dark dream

when you are being pulled under.

you are washed ashore to find that sharks took your legs

there's no way back to the pool you once joyfully splashed in

when the destructive ocean has corrupted you so.

your wings are lost at sea.

the island is place of lost hope and dead wonder.

billions of people with steel shields and melted hearts

sit in the mud, blind, with no tongues.

your losing your heart as it flies to the clouds,

your tongue starts losing its strength.

you search desperately for a way off

until your twisted choices are clear

swim through the raging ocean to your wings

or stay right here.