the coming of genius

2-1-10

2010-02-01T22:55:00.000-05:00

Broken Open

Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be

I don't want you to go
Don't wanna see you back out in the cold
Air you're breathing out fades you to grey
Don't run away, find me

I know the battles of chasing the shadows of who you wanna be
It doesn't matter, go on and shatter
I'm all you need
Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

Let's enlighten the night
We can fall away, slip out of sight
When you drop your guard
Melt into time, so intertwined, quiet

I know the battles of chasing the shadows of who you wanna be
It doesn't matter, go on and shatter
I'm all you need
Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

Broken pieces, break into me
So imperfectly what you should be
Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

Lay here, it's safe here, I'll let you be broken open
Hide here, confide here so we can be broken open

~Adam Lambert

8-29-09

2009-08-29T22:25:00.004-04:00

"When the power of love

overcomes

the love of power, the world will know

peace."

~Jimi Hendrix

8-27-09

2009-08-27T10:55:00.003-04:00

everywhere to go and nowhere to hide

my panic is evaporating

the remainder of my mind

dissect it's cold torture and find thawing hearts

the burn of inevitability

from which I cannot part

my rocks shaking, my head a swirling void

I'm choking on my caged animals

those from which now I can't avoid

consequences of indifference

poison the only thing left

on living past the tears

that never came to wash away

my self-dignified immodesty

and to the souls of all who drink of it

may it wash away your fears.

Product never guaranteed

drink in the honor of my frozen blood

plea to nothingness that it takes me back

to be washed out of my sinful mud

is to shine to all what I lack.

8-27-09

2009-08-27T10:42:00.003-04:00

cold fire spits at my walls-

walls of indestructible indifference,

but I bleed watery shame for the things

they hold.

reality is never so if you don't believe.

my glass walls bubble me in

hold me when no on else

seems to be around,

bounce my cries back to me

when no one is there

to listen.

so I cannot abandon the ones who

let my fears be my comfort.

forcing me to learn

from my ever growing mistakes.

holding me down, not letting me

feel the crying pain,

the destroyer I see all around.

Every time I open the treacherous door

(which I have done oh so many times)

the pressure of a thousand breaths

I've ignored

crush in around me.

My walls keep me safe.

Ignorance is a disaster,

Knowledge is key,

But indifference is a savior.

Indifference shields the weak.

6-28-09

2009-06-28T12:22:00.001-04:00

http://mypointeofview.blogspot.com/2009/06/up-above-world-you-fly-like-teatray-in.html

6-23-09

2009-06-23T20:17:00.004-04:00

Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
A raunchy young world
Mad world

~Tears For Fears

6-5-09

2009-06-05T15:45:00.004-04:00

Drowning In Reality

Things are crashing down inside of me

falling and not getting back up.

falling into myself with no support,

discovering that someone took my training wheels away,

seeing through the fingers of the hand that covers my eyes,

opening a locked door,

walking in on what I don't want to know,

watching the walls fall around me to reveal a darkness.

And knowing it was there all along.

things held close to my heart are torn and broken.

my frozen heart melts

and I discover it was just ice the whole time.

the air around me thinning from deceit and misconception.

my chest crushes into me

trying to find comfort in my heart

but he is just as shaken.

no floor to stand upon.

no plan, no structure, that I know is there.

seeing through my glass floor this whole time

has made me what I think is strong.

but not until someone shattered it,

and I was devoured by the world, did I realize,

the difference between seeing and feeling.

and when reality covers you like a wave

crushing your bones

washing away your skin

you know why people let the waves carry them.

and your tears are mixed with the hatred that you are bathing in

and your wings are torn off by the current

and defying gravity seems like dark dream

when you are being pulled under.

you are washed ashore to find that sharks took your legs

there's no way back to the pool you once joyfully splashed in

when the destructive ocean has corrupted you so.

your wings are lost at sea.

the island is place of lost hope and dead wonder.

billions of people with steel shields and melted hearts

sit in the mud, blind, with no tongues.

your losing your heart as it flies to the clouds,

your tongue starts losing its strength.

you search desperately for a way off

until your twisted choices are clear

swim through the raging ocean to your wings

or stay right here.

4-14-09

2009-04-14T14:40:00.000-04:00

Landslide

I took my love, I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
til the landslide brought it down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, Ive been afraid of changing cause ive
Built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And Im getting older, too

Well, Ive been afraid of changing cause ive
Built my life around you
Time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And Im getting older, too
I get older, too

I took my love and took it down
I climbed a mountain, I turned around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
The landslide brought it down
The landslide brought it down

~ Smashing Pumpkins

4-7-09

2009-04-07T21:44:00.000-04:00

www.neoncitylights.blogspot.com

4-4-09

2009-04-03T12:58:00.006-04:00

4-3-09

2009-04-02T19:22:00.003-04:00

Red is for remembrance

red is for pain.

I can't enjoy Sun as I think about the rain.

I can't enjoy heat when I think about cold.

I can't enjoy now when I think about then.

My thoughts are tied up

and the nauseous feeling that comes with remembrance

forces me to forget.

And I think about all that I've lost

And all that I will loose.

And I start to cry

until I decide to put it off until tomorrow.

And then I think about how that got me here

And how I will never forgive myself for

not enjoying the moment

and not remembering the past

and I die a little inside

when a hear a familiar song.

Because memories cannot be relived

and even the good ones

are painful to remember.

And I breathe familiar air

and trudge through familiar routines

and I am crying all the time

thinking about how I took everything for granted

for all those years.

And how I didn't know who I was

for all those years.

And it will soon be gone.

And never the same.

How can I look up

when I don't even know what's around me?

How can I open my eyes to the rich life that pulls me

in every direction

for 8 bitter years

when I only have one year to live my life?

Before it changes?

And I can't face the present

for fear I'll remember it one day.

4-2-09

2009-04-02T18:56:00.008-04:00

I'm losing myself.

So caught up in the things around me I forget they're there

trying so hard to focus on the important things that I go

too far the other way

and get my priorities

scrambled and confused.

and in trying to find my self

I loose sight in the important things

and in trying to see the truth

I get lost in a mind that is not my own.

And it is too thick with white noise

and screaming voices

to see clearly.

The colors of the world are

blinding me

until I only see in black and white.

And then what?

Where, then, is my yellow brick road?

All my bricks are red.

So I'll build my own road

that no one has followed

because I need to find a way back to myself.

And maybe Dorothy needs a change of scenery.

1-9-09

2009-01-09T12:42:00.002-05:00

1-9-09

2009-01-09T12:38:00.001-05:00

1-8-09

2009-01-08T18:53:00.002-05:00

"In order to show that a hypothesis is evident, it does not suffice that all the phenomena follow from it; instead, if it leads to something contrary to a single one of the phenomena, that suffices to establish its falsity."

~Blaise Pascal, 1648

12-21-08

2008-12-21T12:23:00.003-05:00

"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference."

~Elie Wiesel

11-16-08

2008-11-16T15:34:00.003-05:00

Golden

How cruel is the golden rule,
When the lives we lived are only golden plated.
And I knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me,
Though I carried carats for everyone to see.
And I saw god cry in the reflection of my enemies.
And all the lovers with no time for me.
And all of the mothers raise their babies to stay away from me.

Tongues on the sockets of electric dreams,
Where the sewage of youth drowned the spark of my teens.
And I knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me,
(Too heavy for me.)
Though I carried carats for everyone to see.
(Everyone to see.)
And I saw god cry in the reflection of my enemies.
And all the lovers with no time for me.
And all of the mothers raise their babies to stay away from me,
And pray they don’t grow up to be...

~Fall Out Boy

11-16-08

2008-11-16T15:26:00.003-05:00

Being left behind.

Never keeping up.

Why can't I be happy with who I am?

On the sidelines.

Running after the fading light.

What am I looking for?

Needing to be wanted.

Wanting to be needed.

Is that okay?

Someone tell me it's okay.

Someone tell me something.

Tell me I can hear you scream

even though you can't hear me.

11-14-08

2008-11-14T18:47:00.003-05:00

stomach churning.
heart curling.
does any one understand?
the beat of the drum
ticking away my time.
empty words
that mean nothing to me.
am i the only one?
my heart marches to rythym
and my soul flies on chords
but i am contained as long as you close your eyes.
as long as i close mine.
and i have silver siscors
with diamond blades
but I still don't know how to use them.

10-9-08

2008-10-09T10:54:00.002-04:00

10-1-08

2008-10-01T13:04:00.002-04:00

10-1-08

2008-10-01T09:43:00.004-04:00

I Am Weary (Let Me Rest)

Kiss me mother kiss your darlin'
Lay my head upon your breast
Throw your loving arms around me
I am weary let me rest

Seems the light is swiftly fading
Brighter scenes they do now show
I am standing by the river
Angels wait to take me home

Kiss me mother kiss your darlin'
See the pain upon my brow
While I'll soon be with the angels
Fate has doomed my future now

Through the years you've always loved me
And my life you've tried to save
But now I shall slumber sweetly
In a deep and lonely grave

Kiss me mother kiss your darlin'
Lay my head upon your breast
Throw your loving arms around me
I am weary let me rest
I am weary let me rest

~the Cox family

10-1-08

2008-10-01T09:34:00.004-04:00

Down In The River To Pray

As I went down in the river to pray
Studying about that good ol' way
And who shall wear the starry crown?
Good Lord show me the way!

O sisters let's go down
Let's go down, come on down
O sisters let's go down
Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray
Studying about that good ol' way
And who shall wear the robe & crown?
Good Lord show me the way

O brothers let's go down
Let's go down, come on down
Come on brothers, let's go down
Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray
Studying about that good ol' way
And who shall wear the starry crown?
Good Lord show me the way

O fathers let's go down
Let's go down, come on down
O fathers let's go down
Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray
Studying about that good ol' way
And who shall wear the robe and crown?
Good Lord show me the way

O mothers let's go down
Come on down, don't you wanna go down?
Come on mothers, let's go down
Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray
Studding about that good ol' way
And who shall wear the starry crown?
Good Lord show me the way

O sinners, let's go down
Let's go down, come on down
O sinners, let's go down
Down in the river to pray

As I went down in the river to pray
Studying about that good ol' way
And who shall wear the robe and crown?
Good Lord show me the way

~Alison Krauss

9-27-08

2008-09-27T09:10:00.006-04:00

where's the urgency in life?
too fast it moves
but to die before I wake
is to escape before a relapse
no?
so should I so heartfully pray
not to?
walls of brick and steel
can quarantine the unstable.
absent mindedness and pretentious ecstasy
can shield me from reality.
why bomb my wall?
why deal with what's done?
when a painted smile and empty words
can save your life.

9-5-08

2008-09-05T14:31:00.002-04:00

9-1-08

2008-09-01T14:23:00.003-04:00

Hey There Delilah

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

-by Plain White T's

8-30-08

2008-08-30T10:25:00.002-04:00

2008 Beijing Olympics commercial

8-28-08

2008-08-28T09:19:00.003-04:00

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire

Some say in ice

From what I've tasted of desire

I hold with those who favor fire

But if it had to perish twice,

I think I know enough of hate

To say that for destruction ice

Is also great

And would suffice.

-by Robert Frost

8-28-08

2008-08-28T09:04:00.003-04:00

"People live as if the world is as it should be, to show the world what it could be"~ Angel

8-24-08

2008-08-24T14:33:00.007-04:00

Innocent

Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous
Spends his time alone in the basement
With Lennon and Cobain,
A guitar and a stereo
While he wishes he could escape this
It all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
In a song that has no soul

[Chorus:]
I remember feeling low
I remember losing hope
I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

We are,
We are all innocent,
we are all innocent
We are, we are,
We are,
We are all innocent,
we are all innocent
We are, we are

Oh, Tina’s losing faith in what she knows
Hates her music, hates all of her clothes
Thinks of surgery and a new nose
Every calorie is a war
While she wishes she was a dancer
And that she'd never heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her some answers
And make her feel beautiful

[Chorus]

One day
You'll have to let it go,
Oh
One day
You'll stand up on your own, you'll stand up on your own
Yeah
Remember losing hope,
Remember feeling low,
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

We are,
We are all innocent,
We are all innocent
We are, we are,
We are, we are all innocent, we are all innocent
We are, we are

We are,
We are all innocent
(One day, you'll have to let it go, you'll have to let it go)
We are all innocent we are, we are, we are,
We are all innocent, we are all innocent
We are, we are

We are,
We are all innocent
(One day, you'll stand up on your own, stand up on your own)
We are all innocent
We are, we are,
We are, we are all innocent, we are all innocent
We are, we are

We are... we are all innocent...

-by Our Lady Peace

8-23-08

2008-08-23T14:24:00.003-04:00

“If people make fun of you, it probably means you're doing something right.”~ Amy Lee

8-23-08

2008-08-23T14:12:00.001-04:00

Trapped inside yourself
Imperfect and impure.
Indifferent
Jaded
To watch the hearts die
And never be heard.
Can you help?
Can you save them?
You give yourself too much credit.
Your heart is just as damned.
But why?
Because dreams are dreams.
That is what you believe, no?
Believe
Do you choose to Be?
Or to Lie?
To yourself.
It will happen.
It can.
A dream is just another chapter in your book.
Now where's your epilouge?

8-23-08

2008-08-23T14:08:00.005-04:00

This Is How I Disappear

GO!

To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight this dark night,
A séance down below.
There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know!

And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me,
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore.
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore.

And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, fuck!

So, you can,
well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.

And without you is how I disappear,
And without you is how I disappear,
Whoa whoa... (And without you is how I disappear)
Whoa whoa... (And without you... is how, is how, is how...)
Forever, forever now!

-by My Chemical Romance

8-23-08

2008-08-23T14:02:00.004-04:00

House Of Wolves

Well, I know a thing about contrition,
Because I got enough to spare.
And I'll be granting your permission,
'Cause you haven't got a prayer.
Well I said hey, hey hallelujah,
I'm gonna come on sing the praise.
And let the spirit come on through ya,
We got innocence for days!

Well, I think I'm gonna burn in hell,
Everybody burn the house right down.

And say, ha
What I wanna say
Tell me I'm an angel,
Take this to my grave.
Tell me I'm a bad man,
Kick me like a stray.
Tell me I'm an angel,
Take this to my grave.

(S-I-N, I S-I-N
S-I-N, I S-I-N
S-I-N, I S-I-N
S-I-N, I S-I-N)

You play ring around the ambulance,
Well like you never gave a care.
So get the choir boys around you,
It's a compliment, I swear.
And I said, ashes to ashes, we all fall down,
I wanna hear you sing the praise,
I said, ashes to ashes, we all fall down,
We got innocence for days!

Well, I think I'm gonna burn in hell,
Everybody burn the house right down.

And say, haWhat I wanna say
Tell me I'm an angel,
Take this to my grave.
Tell me I'm a bad man,
Kick me like a stray.
Tell me I'm an angel,
Take this to my grave.

You better run like the devil,
'Cause they're never gonna leave you alone!
You better hide up in the alley,
'Cause they're never gonna find you a home!
And as the blood runs down the walls,
You see me creepin' up these halls.
I've been a bad motherfucker
Tell your sister I'm another
Go! Go! Go!

And I said, say,
What I wanna say
Tell me I'm an angel,
Take this to my grave.
Tell me I'm a bad man,
Kick me like a stray.
Tell me I'm an angel,
Take this to my grave.
Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man.
Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man.
Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man.
Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man.

So get up!
So get out!
S-I-N, I S-I-N!

-by My Chemical Romance

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2008-08-16T19:46:00.002-04:00

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